I've been meditating on relationships today, particularly the relationship between a husband and a wife.


For years I was frustrated in my marriage (and frustrating to my husband!) because I was trying to force something into being that was not meant to be. I have finally understood that the connection I need with my husband is different than what I always thought I wanted or needed from him. The problem has been that I did not receive my husband for who he is and needed to be to me. I was too busy trying to smash him into my idea of who he was and what I thought I needed. I wanted so badly for him to relate to me this "certain" way that I overlooked and rejected the ways he was trying to connect with me.


When you find yourself in that place of "dis-connect" with the person you're supposed to be spending the rest of your life with, it's easy to fall for the enemy's suggestions of loneliness, unhappiness, rejection, etc. And if you happen to come across someone of the opposite gender that you have an instant "connection" with on many levels, it can really unsettle you! It can also lead to all sorts of problems...




As I have come to know and understand my husband more completely, receive him, and allow him to be who he is and needs to be for me, I am finding that connection with him that I've so desperately longed for! It doesn't look like other connections with other people, but it is exactly what Yahweh purposed when He put Jason and me together. This relationship is shaping me into the woman Yahweh needs me to be, and I love that.


So, that's what I've been thinking about...